Nicole and Tori's Adventure

Nicole and Tori's Adventure
She is my world and my motivation. I cannot imagine life without her. Since the day she was born, she has always been the reason I breathe. I love you Tori!

Monday, July 27, 2015

"It Is Finished"

When I hear "It Is Finished" I go into deep thought about what it actually means. When Jesus said "It IS Finished" before he died on Calvary's Cross seven things happened. The seven things are as followed:

  • Forgiveness was offered.
  • Salvation was offered.
  • Love was offered.
  • Sin was defeated.
  • No more suffering.
  • Victory won!
  • OUR RESTORATION WAS MADE POSSIBLE!
So when you hear that phrase be thankful and think not only about the words but the deeper meaning as well.

What True Salvation Looks Like

There are signs that accompany TRUE salvation.

  • Sorrow and hatred
  • Humility and self abandonment
  • The peace of God in our conscience
  • Godly fear that leads to obedience
  • A diligent perseverance
  • The spirit of prayer that leads to joyful expectations
  • TRUE faith that leads to fulfillment of Gods promises

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

R.I.P. Granddaddy

So, last Wednesday, February 18, 2015, my granddaddy died around 7 am. This is really hard for my family and me. The funeral is this Saturday but I already had plans to go to the Ramp. I just want to see him one more time to say goodbye for now. I know for a fact  that he is in heaven watching over us. He was diagnosed with bone cancer and his health was deteriorating and fast. He lost lots of weight and was in lots of pain. At least now he is with God and is happy and pain-free. God I pray and ask you to comfort us. Even if you don't comfort me, please comfort grandma and my family. I was told today that Tori watched as they covered his body. I just pray that she is not traumatized. Lord please be with her. Please be with my family. I love them and I can't stand to see them hurting. In Jesus's name, I ask these things. Amen.







This picture is from 3 years ago. They were married for 17 years. He loved her so much and she, him.














Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Flying Free

Where is the girl I use to be?
Happy and laughing, feeling so free.
As I examine myself to answer the question,
I found that she's hidden away deep inside me.
How do I rescue her? How do I set her free?
I ask God and he tells me,"She's not hidden.
You've set her free. I can see that because you're smiling.
No more sorrow. No more pain. You've let go of the past.
You're living for ME. That's the way it ought to be.
I'm proud of you. Now can you see? Look in the mirror.
The girl you use to be is flying free!"


Wednesday, November 19, 2014

What did I see?

When first looking into the mirror my mind went on autopilot. So many thoughts ran through my mind. My eyes began to water, but I held back my tears. Eyes burning like my feet on hot sand. When asked the question "What did I see?"  I reply, "I saw something". I did not see someone, a human, nor did I see joy. I saw a tool to be used and abused. Oddly, I saw a tool that was lost in the dark, separated from the toolbox. So when you ask me "What did I see?", I tell you that I did not see me.

Monday, November 10, 2014

Just Because

Just Because you cursed me out,
I got mad at you.
Just Because you said my name,
I rolled my eyes too.
Just Because you looked at me,
I stared back at you.
And on that day I got in trouble
Just Because of you.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Loss of friends....Loss of heart....

I smile and laugh like everything is okay, but the truth is...I can't get it out of my head....I hear the gunshot over and over and over again. I hear the phone hitting the floor then next his body hitting the floor....last night I dreamed that while on the phone with him I traveled through the phone and I was there with him right as he shot himself. I couldn't move and I couldn't speak. I screamed but not a sound came out....I saw his brain get blown out of his head and watched, in tears, as his body fell to the floor. I watched in horror as his blood formed a huge puddle until it was all around my feet. I remember seeing his lifeless body laying there on the floor and there was nothing I could do to bring him back....I just think that maybe I could have said something differently...maybe I could have tried to contact him earlier in llife to check up on him...I could have done SOMETHING.....sigh....just the life of an american teenager

Monday, February 10, 2014

Today's World

I'm sitting here thinking of some recent events that have occurred and are still occurring in my life right now. And I'm noticing that 1 big problem with it all is that there is a vast lack of compassion. People act as if caring for someone or something without reason is just the hardest thing in the world. I don't understand! And I especially see this with the men of today's world. Why do you always have to have a reason to JUST CARE!?!? I see women everyday doing for their family and friends and spouses just because, BUT A MAN....... You can barely ask a dude for a cup of water and he go off and get mad because "he just sat down" or he asking you what he gonna get in return for doing something for you. And along with that type of attitude and lack of compassion then comes a lack of gentlemen. I mean ladies think about it, how often do you get men to hold open doors and lend you a hand JUST BECAUSE without wanting something in return? Hardly ever right? It just doesn't make sense to me how things are.